Kelly's Journey Chapter 12-Rescue By Stanman63 Edited By Nora Adrienne with Special Thanks To Terry Naut and JennaFL for Proofing and to Heather Rose Brown for the Illustration! Synopsis: Kelly arrives at her grandparents farm where she is made to feel at home, and learns some family history that sheds light upon a mystery. After learning about the kidnapping of her best friend Julie Woods, Kelly decides to rescue her. But in doing so she pays a high price as she loses her innocence and learns how to hate.

I woke up with Aunt Debbie holding my hand, "Sorry about that, I guess that you overloaded when you heard the song about you." ['It is hard to believe that Kelly is now my niece for all intents and purposes.']

I smiled, "That's OK Aunt Debbie. I just have to get used to being a girl now. When I first saw my new look, I finally saw a woman. There was absolutely no trace of boy. Until then, I saw myself as a boy in a dress. NOW, I see myself as a girl." [' LORD, I want to say good bye to Kelly boy and hello Kelly girl. Please let Kelly boy go to Heaven.']

Then she helped me to sit up, "That's what happens I guess. For me, I woke up from surgery as a girl, boy, was I ever flat chested. So I have no idea of what you went through. You see, you're the first that I saw to get her first forms."

Then I remembered what she said about her transformation, "Oh, You mean that you were not on hormones at the time? It's hard to imagine that."

"No, Kelly, I was not at the time. For a while, I needed those breast forms until mine developed." ['Just how much is she like me, I wonder.']

"How long did it take?"

"Not long, I was fully developed after six months, and now, I produce my own."

"Oh? How is that?"

"After my surgery, the doctors found that I am inter-sexed." ['Lord, is she?']

"Inter-sexed? What's that?"

"It is where you are born with both reproductive systems, to varying degrees." ['Will she make the connection?']

Then it hit me like a ton of bricks, "I could be inter-sexed, too!" ['If so, THEN Johnny and I could have children, just as she could, if ever she was to have sex with a man.']

She smiled at me, "Very likely you are. But it will be hard to tell since you were chemically castrated before puberty."

The implications began to sift through my mind," Auntie, one question."

"What is your question, as if I don't know," she smirked. ['I have yet to answer that question, but I hope to soon.']

"Can you conceive and give birth to babies?"

"I am not sure, Kelly. But I do menstruate like your mother does. So it's possible."

"Oh? How is that possible?"

"Yes, I was lucky in having a surgeon who knew about girls like me," she sighed. ['Even now, Lord, I am in awe of how you helped me.']

I smiled at her, "Girls like you, you mean inter-sexed?"

"Yes, Doctor Andrea DiMaggio helped me by not only making me a woman down below, she also counseled me on how to be one, too."

"Funny, why her, and not Granny, or Momma?"

She looked at me with understanding in her eyes, "I was totally new to being a woman, so she taught me everything about hygiene, and even about enjoying sex. And to tell the truth, I was so in awe of them that I couldn't function as a woman. "

"How did you find out?"

"I'd clam up on things that a woman should know about around them, but opened up around Andrea."

"Sounds as if you two became friends."

"Oh, we did."

"When can I meet her?"

"I doubt that you ever can, sorry."

"Oh? Why is that?"

"She married her True Love, and moved to Providence Rhode Island where they help other special girls."

Then, I thought crossed my mind, "Auntie, you one of those special girls?"

"Yes, just as you are. But there are the transgendered girls, too."

"You mean like I could be?"

"Yes, but that includes lesbians, crossdressers, intersexed, too."

Oh, like that character Drew/Gaby in that trilogy, right?"

"Yes, but in Gaby's case, she is intersexed, and a lesbian. But if Drew was androgen insensitive, then he would be a male with a woman's body."

"That Mady Bell is one cool author, isn't she?"

"Yes, she wrote her Gaby series and donated the proceeds to Mermaids. She really cares for special children."

Then I got up and saw that I was naked, "Aunt Debbie, where are my clothes?'

She passed me fresh lingerie and hose, "Here, fresh clothes for the new you. I have a shorts set for you too."

Then I donned the pantyhose, "Thanks."

After that, I donned the "33C" cup bra that was perfect for my breasts and matching red panty. "Here's the shorts set, Supergirl," she giggled.

"Why Supergirl?"

"Because you are strong to do what you're doing."

"OK, but I will feel foolish dressed like this."

"None sense! That red "S" is an iron-on logo, you can pull it off."

Yes, the shorts were red and the top was a blue long sleeved blouse with a red "S" on the left breast. I donned them, removed the logo and was handed red knee hi socks, "Aunt Debbie, you gonna have m wear red boots too?" I giggled.

"Yep. You'll be a boy magnet at Woods Family Restaurant."

"We meeting anybody?"

"Just your mother."

Then I hugged her, "Thanks Aunt Debbie," I wept.

"Anytime Kelly, anytime."

Then I donned the socks and boots and stood in front of the mirror, "Here is your purse," she said as she passed me a matching purse.

I opened the purse and saw my I.D. and other personnel items and closed the purse and kissed her, "Thanks."

Then we left her store, putting my old clothes in the trunk and headed off to eat lunch with Momma.

Meanwhile, back at the school, Johnny was heading to meet Julie after football practice was over. He was worried because she usually went to the field after cheering in the gym.

"Hey Coach Sparks! Do you know where Julie is?"

Coach Martha Diana Greene is the Head Girl's Coach in charge of the cheerleaders. She is a petite African-American with classic Nubian features. She had won several local beauty contests and was Homecoming Queen in her senior year, replacing Momma from the year before. Coach won a scholarship and went to college to become Athletics Teacher so she could return and teach cheer, dance, and gymnastics. She married Coach Henry David Sparks and became Coach Sparky because of her fiery temper when angry and outgoing attitude to her students.

She turned from where she was locking up the concession stand, "No I don't Johnny Boy. I thought that she'd be at the field with you and my husband David."

Johnny grimaced, No, she never showed up. I thought that maybe you had them practicing extra long today for some reason."

"WHAT? Not with Julie's attitude. With her being Head Cheerleader, my job is loads easier, Maybe we should check out her locker."

"OK Coach, I hope that she's there or a note. This has me worried." he sighed. ['LORD! Please let her be safe.']

"Me too Johnny, me too,"

They went down to the girl's locker room where Coach Sparky held up her hand, "Stay here until I make sure that there are no girls in there changing clothes." [' If I let him go in and see naked girls, it'd be my job.']

"Sure thing Coach, just make sure about Julie for me please." ['Julie's safety more important than more seeing naked girls.']

Then Coach went in," Johnny!! Come on in!! It's clear!!" ['Now, this is weird, why is her locker open?"']

"Where's my sister Coach, and did you open her locker? I see her favorite purse there." "DAMN!! If she ain't here, then where is she?']

"Wish I knew. HEY!! WHAT'S THIS?!" She asked as she picked up an envelope with WOODS printed on it and handed it to Johnny.

He opened it and read it, then blanched as he passed it over.

Woods family, I have kidnapped your daughter Julie Woods. She is unharmed so far. But unless you send me that abomination known as Kelly Lee Moore, Jules will suffer! I shall call you later tonight at 1000 P.M. to see if you have contacted Kelly. DO NOT trifle with me for your daughter's sake.
Reverend Linden Avery Brown

She read it and wept with anger. "WHY DOES HE WANT SWEET KELLY?! WHAT HAS KELLY EVER DONE TO HIM!?" she asked as tears flowed.

"I don't give a damn why Coach! All that I know is that I gotta go tell mom and dad!" he said in fury as he stalked to his gray Thunderbird and raced for home.

In the car, he wept as he drove, "Oh Kelly my friend. Why is he after you? Why did he take my sister? It is up to you to save her. I feel so helpless right now! Please be strong for Julie. I can sense her fright. Thanks to that bond, I can tell you where she is." Then he arrived home and bolted inside, leaving the car open on the front in his haste.

"MOM!! DAD!! COME QUICK!! JULIE'S IN TROUBLE!!" he exclaimed as he slammed the door open.

"What's wrong son? Where's Julie?" asked a perplexed Mrs. Woods as she came running from the kitchen. [' Now what has gotten my son Johnny in such an uproar? And where is Julie? Surely she is OK.']

Johnny held out the now crumpled note to her, "Here! Read this! It'll explain EVERYTHING!" he proclaimed with conviction as he wept. ['LORD! What can I do but pray right now? I need momma and daddy!']

She read the note and wailed, "NO!!! NOT JULIE!!!" Then she crumbled as she fainted from the shock, but Johnny caught her and gently carried her to a sofa in the living room.

"Johnny" Why has your mother fainted?" asked Mister Woods as he came in from the kitchen where he was cooking dinner.

"Here, read this, momma did," said Johnny as he passed over the damning note.

"THAT BASTARD!! HE IS STILL PRACTICING HIS FILTH AFTER HE HURT DEBBIE!! THIS TIME!! HE WILL DIE!!" he exclaimed as he baled up his fists and wept.

"Dad, should I call the police?" [' I have not thought about them ever since Mister Moore died. He was the best.']

"No son, we will call my friend the County Constable . We are in his jurisdiction, not the city's. Besides, he hates that defrocked preacher too."

Then Mrs. Woods awoke, "Yes Charlie, we must make him pay for taking our daughter Julie. But we need to call Kelly as well so that she can help." [' Oh Kelly, I never thought that this would happen.']

We met momma at Wood's All American Restaurant where there were an assembly of campers and R.V.'s with a banner announcing the Costumer's Convention, "You knew about this Aunt Debbie." I giggled.

"Yes, several of them needed my help with their costumes."

Then I stopped just before we went in, "People like me?" ['Can there be THAT many boys that want to be girls in the city?']

Then Aunt Debbie giggled, "No silly goose, there are a few men that like to either dress as women for fun or

women who need help with their assets when wearing costumes. No Kelly, there is only one you."['There's no need to tell her about the entire gamut of all of my customers and their needs.']

Then we went in and saw superheroes and their opponents throughout the restaurant, but around the buffet, there were empty seats for the regular customers. We were greeted by a hostess wearing a white blouse with matching pantyhose, black knee length skirt with matching loafers and a red blazer. "Welcome Debbie, is this your niece Kelly?"

"Yes it is Diana; we're here to meet her mother, Terri Moore. Is she here?" she asked while scanning the place.

Then we heard Momma, "Over here Kelly!" She was standing by a table with her purse on it.

"Well, I guess that's her there," Diana smirked as she led us to Momma.

"How do you know Diana, Aunt Debbie?" [' I wonder, could she be one of Auntie Debbie's school friends?']

"Diana is like us, she use to be David," she whispered to me.

"Wow! She looks so natural."

"That's because she took hormones while a preteen and developed a girl's body."

"Isn't that unusual?"

"Yes, but in her case, she had an accident that took her boy bits, so her parents let her transition to a girl early."

"She wanted to be a girl?"

"Yes."

"Cool! Glad her parents let her. I wonder if I'll look that good," I sighed.

Aunt Debbie put her hand on my shoulder, "You look THAT good now, Kelly!"

Then I hugged her, "Thanks."

By that time, we were at the table and were seated. Diana took our drink order and we went to buffet where I loaded up on tuna and potato salad and clam chowder, my favorites.

I was seated, waiting for them, "Kelly, aren't you being a bit of a pig?" asked Momma as she sat down.

"Momma, you know that I am quite active and that I burn off the calories." ['Is she getting on to me because I am in girl mode?']

Momma sighed, "Yes, I know that Kelly, but you're no longer that active. You need to cut back now or you will balloon on up. Now tell me, do you want to look like a beach ball or called a whale or a pig?" [' I hate having to do this, but she needs to change her eating habits or work out.']

Then Aunt Debbie hugged me, "Terri is right. When I transitioned, I had to watch what I ate because of the hormones." [' At least Kelly has the advantage of being given those hormones before puberty.']

"Momma, Aunt Debbie, I will do as you say, but right now, I am famished. And Momma, you know that I only eat one plate."

"OK Kelly, just looking after you."

We had a scrumptious meal and I told them about my adventures as Kelly girl and why. Until then, I never thought about why I let myself be talked into being Kelly girl, now I knew why. I felt complete when I was Kelly girl. As Kelly boy, I loved sports and was never considered weak or a sissy by my teammates or fellow students.

It was only recently that being Kelly girl became more important than being Kelly boy when I finally accepted Kelly girl as the real me that things had changed. Now I needed to ground myself in what being a girl means.

As we finished our meal, momma received a call on her cell phone, "Hello?"

"Yes, Kelly is here. Why?"

"MY GOD!! ARE YOU SURE?"

"We're on our way!"

"Julie was kidnapped by that defrocked preacher. He wants Kelly."

"You mean that he wants me to go to him and he'll let Julie go?"

"Yes."

Then we left for the Woods Estate at breakneck speed, running red lights the whole way.

In an abandoned building converted into a church, Pastor Linden sat in his office with a bound Julie, still in her blue skirted leotard and white tights from practice sat tied to a chair on the other side of the desk. Guarding the pastor were two beefy men wearing black sweats and shoes. BOTH were sexually excited thinking about sex with Julie, their pants showed their arousal by the tenting of the crotch, "Well Julie, by now your family should have contacted Kelly. All too soon, that abomination will be here where I shall do my Christian duty and deal with him," he sneered. ['I do it for the Church and YOU LORD.']

"Why do you call Kelly an abomination?"

"Because he chooses to be a girl when he was born a boy! Worst of all, he has corrupted the school! Luckily, I have a few followers there."

"Don't you mean to say fellow Christians?"

"HAH! ONLY MY FOLLOWERS TRULY FOLLOW GOD!! THE OTHERS HAVE BEEN FOOLED BY KELLY!" he shouted.

"Kelly has hurt no one. In fact he was hut when a doctor gave him hormones making him go through a girl's puberty."

"So? Kelly STILL chose to dress as a girl and cause boys to lust for him. He has embraced being an abomination!"

"Well I hope that Kelly trounces you for taking me! You had no right to kidnap me!"

"Then Julie, I shall let my followers convince you otherwise, they are eager to help you see the truth."

Then the guards lifted the protesting Julie and carried her to the sofa where they lay her and raped her repeatedly. She shouted through the gag they placed in her mouth as they assaulted her until she passed out from the pain.

"THE PAIN!!!" Johnny shouted as he grabbed his groin and fell over.

Mister Woods lifted his son up, "What's wrong Sport?"

"IT'S JULIE!! THEY ARE RAPING HER!!!"

Then Mister Woods began crying as he laid Johnny on the sofa, "THE BASTARDS!!! THIS IS WAR!!!" he exclaimed.

Mrs. Woods came running in, "Did I hear right? Julie is being raped?!"

"Yes Momma, GOD IT HURTS!!"

"WHAT?!"

"Momma, I feel Julie being raped!! I feel her pain and fear!!"

Then he fainted away from the pain.

The County Constable was in his office when he got the call,"Hello?"

"Sebastian, This is Chuck."

"Why Chuck!! How are things with you and your family? Last I heard, Kelly had been benched because of an injury."

"He was, but that's not why I called you."

"This sounds serious Chuck."

"Julie has been kidnapped and possibly raped by Pastor Linden!"

"DAMN!! I thought that we were rid of his ilk! I'm on my way over!"

"WAIT! There's more!"

"SPILL IT!!"

He wants Kelly!!"

Then he hung up the phone and bolted for the Woods Estate.

As we approached the Estate, I saw something amazing, "Momma! There's Mrs. Woods out front!"

She was there, keeping the gate open for us so that we wouldn't have to stop to open it. After we went in, she came in and shut the gate, then she got in with us as Aunt Debbie had opened the back door, "Thanks for the gate Lynn ."

She began to weep, "Debbie, [sniff, sniff] I am more worried about Julie, [sniff, sniff and Johnny seems to be bonded to her."

"WHAT!? exclaimed momma as she braked quickly.

"That's right Terri, he felt her fear and pain of being raped."

"I'LL KILL HIM!!!" I exclaimed with tears running unashamedly down my face.

Momma drove on to the Manor House, "Kelly, my feelings exactly, but Julie's safety comes first," admonished Mrs. Woods.

"WHY DID HE TAKE HER?! WHY?!"

"To get you Kelly, to get you," replied Mrs. Woods.

Momma parked the car and we got out and Johnny grabbed me in a bear hug, "Oh Kelly! This is a nightmare!!"

Then I kissed him as he let me back down, "Don't worry Johnny, I am here to help end it."

Then we went in as a new car entered the gates, "That'll be the Sebastian, Charlie's Constable friend. He called him after he called you."

"Good, We'll need his help," stated Aunt Debbie as we went inside.

Mrs. Woods stayed at the door to let him in while we went to the dining room where Mister Woods had set out coffee for everybody, He hugged me as I approached him," Welcome back Kelly, wish it was under better circumstances."

I hugged him, "Me too Mister Woods, me too." [' LORD! Give the strength to do what I must to save Julie.']

Then Constable Sebastian entered, "OK Charlie, I'm here."

Mister Woods sighed, "Thanks old friend. Everybody sit down and I'll tell you what we know about Julie's kidnapping."

After we sat down, he continued, Johnny found a note in Julie's locker after practice with Coach Sparky. According to the note, Pastor Linden took her and wants to exchange her for Kelly. But we know that she has been raped."

"How do you know Sir?"

"I felt her pain in my body as it happened Kelly."

I hugged Johnny, "How cruel to learn that way my brother! To be linked and feel her pain."

"There is one good thing, I know where she is."

"Then my people will rescue her."

"No Sir, THAT'S MY JOB!!"

After some arguing, it was decided that I would meet him and thanks to Johnny, I knew where they were. We got into a minibus that the Constable had arrived in and the Wood's phone has been transferred to my cell phone.

We pulled up to Pastor Linden's MIGHTY GOD CHURCH and were aghast at the gaudy display. We got out and I silently entered through the back door, leading the others. About the time that the Constable had secured the door, my pone rang.

"Hello?"

"Is this Kelly?"

"It is."

"Good, good. Are you ready to meet me?"

"Yes."

"Then let me tell you where I am."

"Are you not in your church?"

"Yes I am, Why?"

Then I knocked him out with a single blow to the neck. I was able to sneak up on him, "Because ASSHOLE! I am here to rescue Julie."

By that time, the others had freed Julie who was crying, "Oh Kelly!! They hurt me!!"

"Who?"

She pointed to the two guards, THEM!! THEY RAPED ME!!"

I lost it then, I jumped on both and beat on both of them. I heard bones crack as I let my anger consume me. When they got up, their gun arm was hanging uselessly from their dislocated shoulder.

"YOU BASTARDS! YOU RAPED MY SISTER! NOW, YOU WILL PAY!"

They pulled out long knives and came at me, slashing away, intent upon murder. I vaulted over them and kicked their unharmed shoulders, dislocating it, and then when they were down, ended their manhood with a vicious blow, rupturing the sacks.

They tried to get up, but I grabbed their guns, thusly causing them to stop, "BEFORE NOW, I DID NOT KNOW HOW TO HATE! BUT YOU TWO, AND YOUR LEADER HAVE CHANGED THAT! WHO ARE YOU?"

The dark haired goon looked like Ricardo Montoban from Fantasy Island , but younger, "I am Morrison Avery, his cousin."

The red haired goon looked like Lou Ferrigno, "I am Nelson Avery, another cousin, Morrison's brother."

"Why should I not trounce either of you?"

"You trounce me or my cousin? Surely you jest," chuckled Nelson.

"Little girl, WE will trounce you, and rape you as we did your slutty friend." leered Morrison.

I swift kicked him in the solar plexus, "I have a black belt in karate, and other arts. So, do your selves a favor and do not tempt me!"

By that time, my enemy returned to consciousness, "So, the abomination chooses to parlay with my family, eh? Go ahead, they listen to me," he laughed.

I looked right at hin, knowing that Julie was in terror of him, "So, you had your cousin rape my sister Julie. Just how is that ordained by your god?"

"They simply showed her their power over her to show her that to defy my teachings is to defy my master."

"No, you are so wrong! you have corrupted the Bible into your abominal teachings that support your warped values."

Then, Julie came over, being helped by a stranger, "Kelly, this is Mike. He is OK. He never touched me. In fact, he tried to stop them."

I nodded, "Mike, Why are you here?"

"I Love Julie. And even though I was powerless to stop her from being raped, I have ben trying to comfort her."

"So, you have corrupted Micheal, my chosen successor. You will all be destroyed."

I lost it then, I jumped on both and beat on both of them. I heard bones crack, and heard cries of pain until I felt a shock and passed out.

Kelly's Journey Chapter 11: Aftermath By Stanman63 Edited By Nora Adrienne with Special Thanks To Terry Naut and to Heather Rose Brown for the Illustration! After Kelly has saved her best friend and soul sister from the kidnapper Pastor Linden, she must face her hatred and overcome it or live with bitterness as her heart grows cold and bitter.

I woke up on a couch in the pastor's study, I saw him still unconscious and the bodies of the guards bloodied from my attack. I tried to get up, but I got dizzy and lay back down. Then I saw my still bloodied hands and I lost it.

"NO!! NO!! WHY?! OH WHY?!"

I remembered me attacking them without mercy and landing deadly blows that struck with a sickening finality as I heard bones crack and their bodies contort into gruesome shapes in what I thought was death.

I had been raised to seek forgiveness and reconciliation of differences. Yet I had chosen to maim, kill, and destroy using the skills I learned that taught peace and serenity. I had broken my word to not use my skills to hurt others. This was the price to pay.


Then Mister Woods came and hugged me, "Why what Kelly?" ['DEAR LORD! Kelly needs your help! My Godchild is suffering, and I am helpless to do anything!! What can I do other than call Pastor Pat?']

"Why did they hurt Julie Poppa? [sniff, sniff] Why hurt her when they wanted me?" I wailed as I soaked his shirt with my tears.

He stroked my head, "I don't now Kelly, [sniff, sniff] I don't know. [sniff, sniff] But I do know this." [' Why is he calling me poppa?']

"What's that poppa?"

"You saved Julie from being hurt anymore." ['Why Kelly!! LORD, Why must she sacrifice herself? I was ready to rescue my daughter, but Kelly jumped in and was a dynamo!! Now she is in distress!! I feel so helpless!! Please LORD, help my Godchild because I do not know what to do to comfort
her!']

"But they hurt her! [sniff, sniff] Oh! How I HATE them!! [sniff, sniff] I want them to DIE!" I exclaimed as I beat on his chest. He simply grunted and let me pummel his strong chest in my rage and fury.

Mrs. Woods then hugged me as Mister Woods began crying silently, "Kelly, you must release that hate or become bitter," she admonished me as she wiped away my tears. ['Kelly has been grievously hurt by the ordeal. LORD! How can I comfort my distressed Godchild. I am afraid that she may suicide in her despair.']

"But how? My heart is full of hate!! I am not worthy of love anymore!" I wailed as I held up my bloodied hands. "How can anyone love me NOW!!" I wailed as I brandished my hands in a futile attempt to get rid of the stain on my heart.

Then momma hugged me as I beat upon her back, "I LOVE YOU KELLY!! [sniff, sniff] NEVER FORGET THAT!!" she declared as she wept or me. ['My child! My child! Don't be crying! The LORD
will heal you!!']

"Oh momma! I am broken!! What good am I?! Why am I still living? Why am I not dead as they are?' ['Please LORD!! Take e home!!']

Then she cupped my chin in her hand, "Kelly, remember this, My child! My child! Don't cry! The LORD will heal you!!" ['LORD. Please tell me!! Why must my child suffer so for helping her friend Julie?']

Then I saw only blackness, "LORD! I HOPE SO!! But I have no hope," I sighed as I sank into black despair. All that I saw was a bleak world void of color, filled with the pain and anguish of the hopeless.

Then momma handed me to Johnny, "Oh Kelly! You saved my sister Julie when I couldn't!! I am here for you lil' sister!! I will never let you go!!" [' She has suffered from loving me, now she suffers from loving Julie. Is Kelly doomed to suffer from loving others? I fell in love with her years ago when she was Tinkerbelle for Halloween. Since then, I have seen her confront and overcome obstacles in her way. NOW she has met something beyond her ability to cope with. LORD! Please help my beloved! For I am helpless to help her myself.']

Then a light broke through as his love pierced my despair, "Thank you Johnny! I did it for both of you and would again, no matter the cost to me. Even if it means suffering as I am now, I would gladly pay the price," I sighed in resignation of having no hope. ['LORD! Even though I have no HOPE, I ask YOU to help me to get through this.']

"I know my sister, but now you need to rest and recover your spirit. Come and see Julie, she wants to see you," ['Even now, I can feel her anguish over the rape. LORD, give me the WISDOM to help her, to help them both.']

Johnny carried me over to where Julie lay, her uniform in tatters, hose ripped, but covered with a white sheet that preserved her modesty. She looked at me and smiled as tears unashamedly ran down her face, "Kelly thanks for rescuing me," she said as she kissed me on the cheek. [' She did it for me and now she suffers.']

"I wish that I could have done more, or taken your place," I sighed. ['Maybe rape would be better than this despair.']

Julie opened the sheet and Johnny laid me by her and she snuggled up to me and held me as I dried her tears, "Kelly, you stopped them from hurting me, that's enough! In fact, it's MORE than enough," she said with conviction as her eyes moistened with tears of love. ['My friend is paying too high of a price for me.']

"But Julie! You simply don't understand my pain! I killed them, I am a MURDERER!! I deserve DEATH!!" I wailed out my torment of black despair as I held out my bloodied hands and saw where I had left blood on her cheeks, I saw no hope for myself and prison as my only reward for my sin.

Then the Constable placed his hand on my shoulder, "No Kelly, they're alive, you didn't kill them. I stunned you before you could. The blood on your hands comes from their bloodied noses." ['She's committed no crime but that of helping her friend if such is a crime. I'll do what I can to shield her from harm."]

Then I looked up at him, as Johnny gently covered me and Julie up with another blanket. Once again my heart saw the LIGHT of HOPE. "You mean that they will live?"

"Yes, but for their reward for causing such pain and anguish, none of them will ever father children from what you did to them," he chuckled. ['Kelly has given them a most apt punishment. When they go to prison, their stay will be a living hell as they cope with the effects of the attack.']

Then I grasped what he said and smirked, "They deserved it. Now I don't feel so bad, but I still need to rest," I said as I lay by Julie who raised the sheet. ['I am not a killer. I did not kill in my anger thanks to him. Thank you LORD for keeping me from committing such a crime. I know that I would have killed if not I had not have been stopped by Poppa Woods friend Constable Sebastian.']

As I went to sleep, Pastor Patrick came in, he spoke with the others about what happened, and then he came over to us, "Julie, is there anything that I or the Church can do for you?" He asked with tears in his eyes. ['That bastard Linden will pay for this abomination of justice if I can do anything at all to help! One thing that I CAN do is take away his church since I am the Head of the Tri-County Church Council.']

Julie shook her head, "No sir, momma and daddy are taking me to the hospital to make sure that I am OK, I need to know if they got me pregnant or gave me some S.T.D. when they assaulted me, but Kelly needs you," she said as she hugged me. ['Buck up Kelly, Pastor Patrick is here for you my sister.']

I held her hands in mine, "I know that my sister, but I also need to make sure about YOU. If you are pregnant by them, we, I will be there for you. I will give up being a girl and marry you." ['I must be strong for my sister, but how can I LORD? I truly want to be a girl, but I will sacrifice for my sister.']

Then she hugged him, "Thanks, I guess that I might need to talk about what happened to me if that's alright that is. I've heard that sharing a burden halves it ever since you have been my Pastor. I hope that it's true. And if I am pregnant, I will accept your proposal Kelly. But I hope I am not."

Wiping her tears, Pastor Patrick smiled as he saw our deep love for each other. "Yes, that's alright. Now I need to see about Kelly." [LORD! Help me to help these poor children, Their love is a Testimony of Your Grace.']

"OK."

Then he laid his hands on me, "LORD. Kelly has been sorely hurt in her spirit by what happened. She has found bitterness and hatred now. Please help the wounded child to conquer the bitterness and hatred so that her soul is not darkened. I ask YOU
to give her peace so that she may say that it is well with her soul. In YOUR mighty NAME, AMEN!" ['There, I have done all that I can do for Kelly. The rest is up to YOU my LORD.']

"Thank you Pastor Patrick. [yawn] I know that things will be better for me now. [yawn] If y'all don't mind, [yawn] I need to take a nap." ['Is this YOU LORD helping me? All that I know is that I am at PEACE now and that is enough for now.']

Then Julie fluffed up my pillow and kissed me, "Me too Kelly, me too." ['This is the first time that we have taking a nap together without supervision.']

Nobody objected and they came over to give us both a kiss and hug good night. Julie and I giggled as Pastor Patrick's beard tickled us. They left us there, curled up together as we snuggled down to sleep. Even though I could have, I did not arouse at the thought of sex with Julie, I saw her as my sister, NOT my lover. Then I had a dream.

I saw daddy sitting on a rock, with his arms open wide, "Welcome back Kelly, you have been sorely hurt! Be at Peace my child, and rest from your weary load and find refreshment "he grinned.

I jumped into his arms and he held me safe and secure as I snuggled up to him and kissed and hugged him, "Thank you daddy, I love you so much." I felt safe and secure in his arms and felt my darkness fade away.

He looked into my sad and weary eyes as I released my despair and anger from my heart, "Yes my child, rest from your weary load and heavy burden. You have been through the valley of despair and bitterness. Now it is time to release that anger and hatred so that you may be whole again my child."

"But how daddy? Right now I feel safe and secure, but I still feel the burden of hatred and anger deep within me that even now I can't get rid of. Can you help me get rid of them, or do I go to Jesus," I sighed as I wondered with a smattering of hope what could be done to help me.

Then he motioned to a group of angels carrying a variety of musical instruments, "Listen to the song and learn."

"What song daddy?"

Then I heard angels sing the song "GIVE THEM ALL TO JESUS." As I listened, my heart broke as the pain of the anger, bitterness and hatred was lifted and replaced with the JOY OF THE LORD. When the song was over, I looked up as an angel approached us. If mythical Helen of Troy was so beautiful that she launched a thousand ships, HERE was the face that would easily win her heart.

He was both tall and strong, with a ready smile and a twinkle in his eyes, "Hello there, which angel are you?" I asked as I held out my hand.

He gently shook my hand, engulfing it in his big, meaty palm, "I am the Archangel Gabriel, Young Warrior. I have come to help you in your need," he warmly smiled as I saw his wings fold down upon his shoulders.

I looked from him to my daddy in confusion as my daddy chuckled, "Young warrior? I am not any sort of warrior. Daddy here was a Police Officer on Earth, not me. Now why do you call me Young Warrior?"

Then my daddy hugged me, "Because you have fought a Great Battle in your young Life and won a victory that very few could ever hope to accomplish in their lives Kelly. I am very proud of you my child."

"But Gabriel and daddy, I don't feel victorious at all. I feel all yucky and gross inside as if I am full of something rotten and not worthy of even being here. If that makes sense to you," I sighed and looked down, ashamed to admit to my admission of failure and defeat.

Then he took hold of my chin and turned my face towards him, "Kelly, Young Warrior, by taking on those who kidnapped Julie and defeating them, THAT was your victory, and then by giving up the anger, bitterness and hatred that it caused, you have sealed it. And none could have done any better."

Then I smiled sheepishly and blushed, thankful for his kindness, "Well, funny thing is that even though I gave them up, I still feel all hollow inside. Gabriel, can you please tell me Why is that is."

Then he looked at me and grinned I could see a merry twinkle in his eyes, " Kelly, the reason for that is very simple. It is because you have YET to give them all over to the MASTER," replied Gabriel.

"How do I do that Gabriel?"

Then another angel came up, while Gabriel was dark haired with blue eyes, this one was red haired with green eyes. He held out a dark sphere with traces of red through out, "You must give THIS to the MASTER Kelly."

I took the bauble from him, What is this and who are you?"

"I am the Archangel Michael. What I handed to you is the burden that weighed you down from the ordeal. Now, once you give it over to the MASTER, then you will be free of it and its weight forever more."

Then I saw my life was now freed of the ordeal and the Joy of Life once again filling me, "May I hug the two of you?"

They looked at each other and light danced in their eyes, "Yes, just let you father hold the bauble," they chorused.

Then I handed daddy the bauble and hugged the angels who both smiled sheepishly, then flew away as a pearlescent light approached us, "Well Kelly, you have certainly given my Archangels Gabriel and Michael much to ponder, he chuckled.

"JESUS!!" I exclaimed as I jumped into HIS awaiting arms. I felt even safer in His arms than my daddy's.

"Yes, young Kelly, it is I, I bid you welcome to Heaven my sweet child," he smiled as HE wiped away my tears of JOY.

Then I suddenly thought about Julie and her ordeal and my Heart needed an answer, "Will Julie be OK?"

"Yes, she is here now, she is being healed of her pain and despair so that she will not have any nightmares and be able to give her love to her husband. When she marries she will not remember the ordeal's pain."

"Am I to be her husband?"

"Only you can decide to ask her."

"OK, Oh yeah! I have a burden to give you."

Then he held the bauble, "You mean this."

"Yes, I thought that daddy had it though."

"When you freely gave up your burden, you gave it to me."

"What happens to it now?"

"As with all such, I send it as far as the East is from the West."

"OK Jesus, I feel that it is time to go for some reason," I sighed.

"It is Kelly, go say bye to your father then you shall awaken."

Then I kissed Jesus," Bye Jesus."

Then I went to my daddy who opened his arms, "So long Kelly."

I kissed him," Bye daddy."

Then when I awoke, I found that I was in my bed in the Playhouse with Julie snuggled up by me. We were both wearing matching tops, shorts and hose of white. As I looked at her smiling face, I began thinking about her and what she meant to me.

Did I think of her as just my sister? Did I want to be her lover? COULD I be her lover? Did she want me to be her brother? Did she want me to be her sister? Did she want me to be her lover? Could I be the Father of her children?

As I pondered these questions, Julie awoke with a smile, "Morning Beautiful, how long have you been awake?" [' What a night! That dream seems to have erased my nightmare for me.']

"For about an hour, I've been thinking about us too." ['Now it is time to see if things have changed between us.']

She lay on her side, Oh? What about us? Should I be worried?" she asked with a mischievous grin.

I turned to her, "Whether we are sisters or more than that. Last night kinda makes me wonder," I sighed.

Then she gently stroked my cheek, "Please don't wonder Kelly. I can give you the answer you are seeking." ['Usually it is Kelly that is comforting me. NOW it is my sister that needs for me to comfort her.']

"Why?"

"Because you ARE my brother or sister depending on who you choose to be. I know that you love me as a sister, and truthfully, that is more than enough for me." ['It has taken me until now for me to be able to admit it.']

"So, am I forgiven for dropping you as my girlfriend?" I sighed as I remembered the Hell that we both went through not long ago.

Then she kissed me gently on the lips, "You were forgiven long ago." ['And now I can give you what you need.']

Then I kissed her in return, "Thanks my sister. I just wish that I knew how I feel right now," I sighed.

Then she grinned "Well?"

"Well what?"

"Tell me this Kelly my sister, do you want to be a girl?"

"Yes."

Then it's simple, really."

Oh?"

"You are NOT a lesbian, Right?"

"Right. I like boys, especially Johnny."

"There you go sister."

After that, we got up and went down to breakfast and got on with our lives. Julie's exam showed that she was clean of any S.T.D. and other than being sore, was basically sound. She never had any nightmares from the ordeal and faithfully attended the support group where she met Andrew Barbabas Taylor whom she started dating soon after.

Johnny went to counseling about his part of the ordeal and learned about the pain that victims go through. He decided then to devote himself to becoming a Police Officer like my daddy. He went to college and earned degrees in counseling, and athletics.

Constable Sebastian made sure that Pastor Linden and his followers went to prison and the church was disbanded. But in its place the Tri-County Counseling Center was formed and run by Pastor Patrick's son Pat Junior who helped many people with their problems.

After breakfast, we got together to talk about what happened to us with the others. We talked about our respective dreams and how JESUS had spoken to us and how HE had taken away our burden and despair.

When we were finished, everybody gave us a group hug and promised to be there for us if we ever needed them for anything. Then we left the building and the Constable handed the keys to the building over to Pastor Patrick.

"Thank you Constable, the Council will decide what to do with this closed church."

"The only reason that I'm doing this is because the Tri-County Church Council was given the right by the Constitution."

Then we all left and went on our way after I had hugged and kissed momma and the Woods good bye for now. As I drove us back to the farm, I began to ponder what my life would be like now that I ready for my new life.